Do you also think the same ?

 Not sure how many you have felt this but I do. 

I am basically a very active person . I sleep very less and my brain is kind of keeps thinking creative . I have a lot of hobbies and I do something or else . This is not because I get bored but I jus can’t sit simply . 

Also, I hate watching tv or listening to radio . I am gardening, crocheting, cleaning house , painting , cooking and so and so ... these days . 

I do some exercises and also have started to love the sky . I take a lot of pictures of the clouds when I go to the terrace . 

I find myself speaking less to people and that’s something I am wantedly doing because I tried so much to get along but I find everyone only finding faults or praising their lifestyles and degrading me . 

And I find many people have turned with advice these days but they are actually happy roaming around and getting their part of work done silently . 

End of the day what I learned is patience ,confidence and hopes are everything. People around are just trying to break it . Have you also felt the same . 

How do you deal your life these days ? how are managing the loneliness or what have you learnt during these times ? 

The Unknown letters to the unknown

 Hello ! 

As you all know I am used to do journal for a long time and today I thought to write something about it . 

I am planning to change the questions for my journal after a long time and you can find them below . These questions might be useful to get an idea for someone hence posting it here . 

For people who think they want to say something and couldn’t say to anyone or feels as no one hears you there is an idea . Start writing letters to god and keep it with you . Writing helps you a bit relaxed and feel better . Later in life when you take those letters and see you will know that you have come a long way . I had this habit from the age of 12 or 13 and I still have those letters kept safe forever . When I go through it I know that I have been so good to myself and others which brings a proper vision of my life . I know that I have gone wrong at many places but I absolutely take it because that’s what helped me find a better aspect of life . There is nothing great than talking or writing for yourself . Try it and you will know what’s going on with your life .Hopefully you will fix it down the line . 

Writing journal everyday has helped me to keep myself calm and understand what’s going around me and how to deal with it . I normally write it before I go to sleep . And that last topic will be a happy one in the list . Make sure to write all types of topics or questions so that you will get an idea . Do not be scared to write something that should not be on paper . After some days you will realise that you have come far away from that one situation . 

Put yourself first . Yes First . 

This will pass and you will forgive and forget . 

1. Did you spend enough time with Tungli?
2. Which area of the house did you clean today ? 
3. Did you eat a fruit ?
4. Did you have good conversation with Naveen ? 
5. Did you ask how are you to anyone you know ? 
6. What did you see from the balcony or terrace today ? 
7. Did you do anything creative or that makes you happy ? 
8. What you dint like today and why did you react like that ? 
9. Did you pray or stay in peace for few minutes atleast ? 
10. Did you think what all to do once the universe gets better ? If yes , what are the plans ? 
11. Did you save a rupee ?
12. Do you think the plants are healthy ? 
13. Was it a good day ? Rate yourself on how you feel ? 

These are the only questions I could write right now because currently the situation is myself & home . 

Let me know your questions or anything about your journals. I would love to know how people deal with it . 

The Auto ride

Here I am writing in hope that we all survive this second wave of Covid in India . Please stay home and tidy . Today if I am doing anything or if I have little in life it’s a luxury . This is what I feel ! Be happy and grateful for each and every second of your life . 

Today I had to go to the medical shop to buy some gloves and masks . I went in an auto and I think that was a good thing . This auto driver started by saying they have stopped the autos and I don’t know what to do . My auto is in loan and if you hear my life story you will get down and walk away . I told him that’s ok you can say and the story goes like this . His wife has cancer and she is blind . He has 2 daughters at home . He has not paid 3 months of his house rent and he said as he doesn’t have money to buy kanji powder he buys 10 rupee packet everyday and gives to his wife . He eats some rice water with pickle with his children . His eyes was full of tears . He said he got 600 rupees per day before lockdown but now doesn’t know what to do . He said if my wife dies I don’t even have money to do the rest of the rituals. 

Why did I listen to his story ? 

Because I know how it is like to keep so much within and no one to say what you feel like . 

After I got down from the auto he asked for the right charge amount . Not greedy at all . 

I had only 1000 rupees left in my purse and I gave it to him . He asked why madam and he couldn’t talk because of the sadness in throat and happiness in the eyes . 

Now , I am not posting this here for any appreciation. I am telling you that you are blessed to be where you are and always be thankful . 

Might be because of the good deeds my parents did I am atleast in this condition today . I am happy that I did the least I could for him . Atleast for today he will have a good day . This is  all that I could do because like all others I also have my own difficulties. I honestly wish I had a lot of money to help many more . 

When you see someone needs help in front of your eyes please do it without expectations . It will come back one day on the right time . 

Stay safe and this too shall pass . 

Few paintings from me and Tungli

 Hello ! 

As it’s lockdown in India and to be active myself and Tungli did some paintings together . Here are they . Let me know which one you liked the most . 

My Daily Routine for now .

Hello everybody. As we all know the world is not in a great shape now . Especially India . I safely reached India but when I came here situation is more worst than where I was . Anyhow that’s ok. The whole world deals this now . 

Today I just thought of writing few daily routine of mine here so that it might give a positive vibe to someone who reads this or some might get an idea from the blog. 

Here are few of mine 

1. I make a healthy recipe everyday with the available veggies and make a video and share it in YouTube . 

2. I do a small painting everyday . A flower, bird , tree . The smallest ones but it makes me happy . 

3 . I started seeing animal planet for sometime everyday . Half hour probably . 

4 . I have a very small circle of people around . I make calls to them or text just to know how they are . 

5.As our area is in red alert we can’t go anywhere hence I take Tungli for cycling in the terrace everyday . She enjoys the wind and the ride .

6. I pray god a bit more and think positive things and dream what next ? This might be funny but try it .

Now, let me know what are you all doing to keep up yourself well . 

Stay safe . This too will change 

Much love 

Orange Paati &Tungli

 Hello Everybody! Hope you all are doing good . 

Here is a very beautiful post from my side today . 

I made a way to go to my hometown after 16 years just to get that feel and show Tungli from where I came . She also got to enjoy all the little things in the village . I shall post some stories later here but today is a grandmother and grand daughter feeling post . 

We have a neighbour granny who knows me well but she is seeing Tungli now only . On first few days Tungli dint talk much later she started asking for the granny . She loved getting Digestive biscuits from her and green lollipop . Tungli calls her orange paati as she wore orange saree when she saw her for the first time . Everyday she sees that granny and tells her everyday story .

Before I left my hometown that granny told me don’t beat her, if you go I will feel sad do come often . She is a good girl,eat properly , listen to your mummy goes on . When this granny told all this to Tungli I saw tears in her eyes . She definitely missed Tungli and Tungli missed her too because even after reaching home she asked for Orange Paati . 

What I see here ? 

I see a mother <3

When you get some love in life always try to get it and keep it with you because you never know how things will turn . 

I am posting a picture of the Window and Tungli with orange paati . Hope you see orange paati again . 

Me in a collage

 Hello hope you all are doing well . This is my first post of 2021 so thought of posting a colourful one ;) 

I know this picture is kind of confusing but ya that’s me in a collage . I simply made a collage with the random pictures I take when I go out . I loved it . Hope you liked it . 

Do you also take pictures like this for fun ?

Would be coming sooon with many interesting  posts ...