Shiva

Why am I going through this ?

Not sure how to put it in the right way but I shall try my best to narrate what I feel about it .

So for a long time I have been going through this . For so many years I would say . It's now that I realised that this is the time to write about it.

I definitely know this is not my problem and it's the other end also but I am thinking what to do best so that nothing gets worse.

I normally dont talk much over the phone to anyone except few close ones .
For the past days I am noticing the below
Whenever i talk to someone they try to impose their thoughts are right and what they are saying is right . If i answer to them then it will end in an argument or something else .

A cousin of mine said that my thought process is not right but so far I think it's right. The context that she told is that she looks at us as own siblings but I dont . But people got to understand without them making me feel that way no human would say what I am saying now . But whatever its upto her and I am leaving it because I know that I cant change people .

I also noticed that people just want to test how i respond . They fight with me for a day and i would ignore it .The next day they send me a random forward message just to see what I reply and my answer would be some emoji and it's because I am worried that if I give an answer then they catch on it and again put something on my way.

The point is I dont have time in my life to argue or find faults or gossip . I live my life you live your life simple as that . But lately I think people have time only to talk about me and things around me which I never did to them . Whenever I get a call they say you got a happy life though your past was bad and they say see our life is not that great. What can I do about it ?It's not my problem if they dont find happiness with what life has offered them.

So what do you think about this feeling ?Do you think I am right ? How do you see this from your side ? Have you gone through this same situation ? .

Note : I definitely know that this is not my only problem  but I could find some changes in me like I have become more patient than before and not impulsively responding like before . Though I know what is wrong and what's happening around me I keep quiet because I think life is too short to put my time into these stuffs and I can only think about what I am going to do with my life and tungli .I stopped talking to many of my people . Unless i get a call or message i am not responding . Nobody can see my status messages or pictures because I am afraid that they call me and have their unwanted talks .I dont even want to put me in a situation where I have to hear a comment for my contents .

Do you think me keeping my life this way is right . I normally dont put these type of posts but just thought of writing it today .