18 October 2011

I am paid to be sweet!

I am a person who talks a lot or you can call me as a chatterbox.When i was in school everyday my mum and dad comes and stands in front of my school principal..something or else ..i was very mischevious.Even now when i go home they say -can you please shut your mouth for sometime...whom ever i see will be become my friend ..from a dustbin collector to anyone let it be.I worked for an organization for 2.5 years .I had a very nice team of 22 .All of my same age group.I was into customer service..All the customers were my friend they call and ask for my help.I even have few who has sent me gifts.Life was so beautifull.I go to office at early morning 1 AM like a ghost and return back in the sun..when i return home i find people rushing to office..At that time i think will i get a day where i get ready in the morning and go to office -at least one day in my life time.Its very tough to get day shift in a customer service field.Eventough i  was piad less and worked without sleep i was happy that i got many people around me and i managed to gather many good friends..There were days where i sleep in the chair in my office and have breakfast at 4AM in the morning standing with a plate in a local shop which is next to my office/I participated in all team outings/We had Dj nights for new year in my office/Singing competitions and goes on like that .I have got outstanding scores for 6 times and i was promoted as a complaints manager .All the calls we receive will be the most pathetic one for the day where the customers will be so irate and i have to be very Patient ....
I learned how to be patient after going into customer service field ..My parents were so happy to see me like that as when i was a small girl i was  short tempered .If i throw an orange on the wall you can collect a good amount of orange Juice!!!
I love speaking English and i love speaking to english people as well..
I loved my job !!
I did not have any issues with my company other than the salary..
I decided to move out of the company .I was the 2nd to join the new team.Then it became 5 in a team..while comparing the previous company count it was less here and even the work floor space was lessI thought that i had a good team of 22 so for sure i can make these 5 as my best friends,which never happened  ....Eventhough i did the same sort of job which i did in my previous company the work place was tough for me ..I could not sync up with people ...I was discouraged and put behind..which makes me totally sick ...I never felt to come to my floor .I dont join any team functions or celebrations .i dont party ..Nothing -i come to work take calls and leave for the day ..People were so partial each other ..i was not recognized in any way .Then day by day i even stopped talking to people.I tried myself to be good and make them my friend but then that never happened ,i dont know why?I dont understand how they rate a person in my workplace ..
When i left my previous company my Team leader told that you will learn many things when you go out of this place .I realize the meaning of that statement now.
I myself know that i am worthy enough- but the people with me dont understand that !!its a lose for them not for me...
I’ve been a success since Day 1, because even when i was Zero i had people around me
 I will always provide good customer service
I came to a conclusion that -I am paid for being as sweet as honey to the customers not to others hence i just do my work !!!!!
Always work for your  heart not for money !!!

6 October 2011


I have a habit that i sit in front of television before i brush teeth every morning .i happened to see that "Steve Jobs, Co-founder of Apple Inc" was dead .To be honest i know that he is the co-founder of Apple.Inc but then i dont know anything about him.I came to office and OPENED MY INBOX-Here we go .The below is what i read ..It really touched my heart and i got inspired !
Steve Jobs, Co-founder of Apple Inc, who died on the 5th of October 2011, lets read a story which really INSPIRES…….


About Steve Jobs

Steven Paul Jobs (February 24, 1955 – October 5, 2011)  was an American computer entrepreneur and inventor. He was co-founder,  chairman, and chief executive officer of Apple Inc. Jobs also previously served as chief executive of Pixar Animation Studios; he became a member of the board of directors of The Walt Disney Company in 2006, following the acquisition of Pixar by Disney. He was credited in Toy Story (1995) as an executive producer.

Stanford Report, June 14, 2005
'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says
This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.
The first story is about connecting the dots.
I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?
It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife.
 Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers.
She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.
And 17 years later I did go to college.
 But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.
It wasn't all romantic.
 I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:
Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this.
I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.
None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac.
 It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.
Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.
My second story is about love and loss.
I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out.
When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.
I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley.

But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.
I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.
During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.
I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work.
 And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.
My third story is about death.
When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.
Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.
I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy,
 where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.
This was the closest I've been to facing death,
 and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:
No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.
Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.
Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous.
Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.
Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.
Thank you all very much.

5 October 2011

Fractured tears -healing

I guess that you all would have read "Fractured tears".Ben returned back today ..I was busy doing my work.I sit in the entrance of my floor .You can even say that i am the "Face of my floor"but still i did not notice him..All of a sudden when i got up i saw ben standing with a black Shirt and blue faded Jeans and a band-aid which was pink and white in colour  ..I felt to shout BEN!but my floor people will say shooooooo!!!hence i could not show my feelings out .I controlled and waited for him to come and tell a Hai ...He went to everyone and gave explanations for all the questions which they asked ..But i noticed that many did not even have a heart to tell him a hai or to ask how are you ?Heartless people..
Here comes He went to that girl and was speaking for a long time .Again my head went on asking why he went to her first?what to do ?my bludy brain works like that !!
I told him to wait so that i can take a break and spend some time with him ..People are all laughing at him and asking hell out questions they dont understand that he cant talk much as the teeth is clipped .not even one is good enough to say take care ...
Anyhow at the end i managed to take a 30 minutes break with a tea..we went to open air theatre and spent some good time .He showed the fotographs which were taken when he was in hospital,Then came the question ..What am i for you ?Actually i did not have an answer .As i mentioned i already have a boyfriend but then i care so much for ben that i cant say how much i like him??Some feelings cant be expressed .....
He is leaving home tommorow
Hope he will be back to form sooon..
Atleast if he was in chennai i could have met him but he is travelling long way i have to wait until he comes back .
Still will make sure that he is Happy !!!!! have promised ben that once he is back we will go to church
He laughed ..heeeeeee..yu comming to church ??
I normally tell that i will come out but then all weekends i stay back home washing clothes and cleaning my room

But this time without fail.......


The kid .

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