Do you also think the same ?

 Not sure how many you have felt this but I do. 

I am basically a very active person . I sleep very less and my brain is kind of keeps thinking creative . I have a lot of hobbies and I do something or else . This is not because I get bored but I jus can’t sit simply . 

Also, I hate watching tv or listening to radio . I am gardening, crocheting, cleaning house , painting , cooking and so and so ... these days . 

I do some exercises and also have started to love the sky . I take a lot of pictures of the clouds when I go to the terrace . 

I find myself speaking less to people and that’s something I am wantedly doing because I tried so much to get along but I find everyone only finding faults or praising their lifestyles and degrading me . 

And I find many people have turned with advice these days but they are actually happy roaming around and getting their part of work done silently . 

End of the day what I learned is patience ,confidence and hopes are everything. People around are just trying to break it . Have you also felt the same . 

How do you deal your life these days ? how are managing the loneliness or what have you learnt during these times ? 

The Unknown letters to the unknown

 Hello ! 

As you all know I am used to do journal for a long time and today I thought to write something about it . 

I am planning to change the questions for my journal after a long time and you can find them below . These questions might be useful to get an idea for someone hence posting it here . 

For people who think they want to say something and couldn’t say to anyone or feels as no one hears you there is an idea . Start writing letters to god and keep it with you . Writing helps you a bit relaxed and feel better . Later in life when you take those letters and see you will know that you have come a long way . I had this habit from the age of 12 or 13 and I still have those letters kept safe forever . When I go through it I know that I have been so good to myself and others which brings a proper vision of my life . I know that I have gone wrong at many places but I absolutely take it because that’s what helped me find a better aspect of life . There is nothing great than talking or writing for yourself . Try it and you will know what’s going on with your life .Hopefully you will fix it down the line . 

Writing journal everyday has helped me to keep myself calm and understand what’s going around me and how to deal with it . I normally write it before I go to sleep . And that last topic will be a happy one in the list . Make sure to write all types of topics or questions so that you will get an idea . Do not be scared to write something that should not be on paper . After some days you will realise that you have come far away from that one situation . 

Put yourself first . Yes First . 

This will pass and you will forgive and forget . 

1. Did you spend enough time with Tungli?
2. Which area of the house did you clean today ? 
3. Did you eat a fruit ?
4. Did you have good conversation with Naveen ? 
5. Did you ask how are you to anyone you know ? 
6. What did you see from the balcony or terrace today ? 
7. Did you do anything creative or that makes you happy ? 
8. What you dint like today and why did you react like that ? 
9. Did you pray or stay in peace for few minutes atleast ? 
10. Did you think what all to do once the universe gets better ? If yes , what are the plans ? 
11. Did you save a rupee ?
12. Do you think the plants are healthy ? 
13. Was it a good day ? Rate yourself on how you feel ? 

These are the only questions I could write right now because currently the situation is myself & home . 

Let me know your questions or anything about your journals. I would love to know how people deal with it . 

The Auto ride

Here I am writing in hope that we all survive this second wave of Covid in India . Please stay home and tidy . Today if I am doing anything or if I have little in life it’s a luxury . This is what I feel ! Be happy and grateful for each and every second of your life . 

Today I had to go to the medical shop to buy some gloves and masks . I went in an auto and I think that was a good thing . This auto driver started by saying they have stopped the autos and I don’t know what to do . My auto is in loan and if you hear my life story you will get down and walk away . I told him that’s ok you can say and the story goes like this . His wife has cancer and she is blind . He has 2 daughters at home . He has not paid 3 months of his house rent and he said as he doesn’t have money to buy kanji powder he buys 10 rupee packet everyday and gives to his wife . He eats some rice water with pickle with his children . His eyes was full of tears . He said he got 600 rupees per day before lockdown but now doesn’t know what to do . He said if my wife dies I don’t even have money to do the rest of the rituals. 

Why did I listen to his story ? 

Because I know how it is like to keep so much within and no one to say what you feel like . 

After I got down from the auto he asked for the right charge amount . Not greedy at all . 

I had only 1000 rupees left in my purse and I gave it to him . He asked why madam and he couldn’t talk because of the sadness in throat and happiness in the eyes . 

Now , I am not posting this here for any appreciation. I am telling you that you are blessed to be where you are and always be thankful . 

Might be because of the good deeds my parents did I am atleast in this condition today . I am happy that I did the least I could for him . Atleast for today he will have a good day . This is  all that I could do because like all others I also have my own difficulties. I honestly wish I had a lot of money to help many more . 

When you see someone needs help in front of your eyes please do it without expectations . It will come back one day on the right time . 

Stay safe and this too shall pass .